My Recent Struggles

Hello all!

It’s been a while since the website update and relaunch of the site. I had expectations that were originally dreamt up. I would post once a week. Then life happened and the struggles have been very real.

My full time job ended sooner than expected. The hunt for a new one began and after 3 weeks, a new one was obtained. The sad thing is that it didn’t last long either. A week to be exact. I’m still on the search for a steady paycheck. I’ve had a few promising interviews but I’m not holding my breath until I get an offer and I’m there longer than a few weeks.

The struggles continue…

You would think this is the perfect time to knock out some writing right? However, on top of professional struggles there have been a few personal ones too. Putting out all these fires left me a little depleted and uninspired. I hadn’t reached very many people anyways. Who would miss it?

Me.

I made a commitment and I plan is to keep it. This blog is not only my way of helping others but it’s for myself as well. I need to keep myself accountable for maintaining my diabetes naturally. This is one of the most important things that I must do for myself.

So moving forward, I’m going to be sure to post something once a week. Whether it will be a personal post or anything else, I’m going to commit to writing something.

Thank you for hanging with me this far.

All the best!

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Don’t Let Fear Get in the Way of Getting Checked

 

Get checked. It’s important

 

Ok so we know what diabetes is. You have an idea of the starter medication that you’ll take and some of the side affects. Are you planning on getting checked? When should you get checked?

 

The Symptoms

Common diabetes symptoms include having to pee a LOT, being super thirsty (I call it Sahara desert mouth syndrome), hunger, weight gain, unusual weight loss, and fatigue.

The biggest thing that I noticed when I decided to get checked was I was ALWAYS in the bathroom. It didn’t matter if I had something to drink or not, every hour I was going. I also noticed that I had this weird dry mouth thing happening (Sahara desert mouth syndrome). It was like I was always thirsty and whatever I drank wasn’t enough. Thirst is the worst thing for me to have because my weak point with the cutting out a lot of sugar are drinks. I have a serious sweet tooth when it comes to drinks. It’s how I’ve been able to go without eating sugary things. Traded one demon for another. So every time I got thirsty I’m reaching for some juice or sweet tea and sometimes coffee. Every now and then I’d reach for a soda but could stop drinking them when I wanted. I’m sure doesn’t matter if I’m drowning in Hawaiian punch.

 

I fell into this cycle of drinking sugar, then running to the bathroom, then drinking more sugar. Sleeping through the night was impossible without going to the bathroom at least 3 times. I started to think about it being something more. Even the dry mouth started to keep me up at night because it was so uncomfortable. I had to sleep with a water bottle under my pillow just to get through the night.

 

I ignored the symptoms for a while

 

A conversation with my dad that had me thinking it was time to get checked. I asked him how he went from a pre-diabetic stage to full type 2 diabetes. After a while he gave me a run down of what the body does to let you know. He said that with all the excess sugar in your body what ever doesn’t get used ends up doing 1 of 2 things. It’s either stored as fat, which then adds more weight to your body. That ends up being more work for your organs to process things and it gets tired out. Or your body tries to get rid of all the excess sugar. You guessed it, by flushing it out of your system. When your always thirsty, your drink more. If you drink more, you pee more. Diabetes plays a role in your eye health as well so sometimes it’ll even come out through your tear ducts. Ever wonder why your eyes are watering up and leaking?  Not so random.

 

I finally went to the doctor

 

So anyways after that chat with dad, I made an appointment. I had spent the last 2 months running to the bathroom all the time, dying of thirst, and getting no sleep. If  working out was an interest I had zero energy to do it.  It was this vicious cycle that was wearing me out. Did I mention that during those sleepless nights sometimes I would eat? Yup! After being up so long I would get hungry. Throw in my Sahara desert syndrome and you’ve got the perfect recipe for unknown diabetes to drive you crazy.

 

I had been putting off going to the doctor because I was scared. I’d watched so many people around me fight illnesses. I’ve seen home pharmacies created. People hooked up to machines or in the doctors office every other week. I had always struggled with my weight (more in my head than in real life) but never thought that I would get sick. I thought I was immune to some degree. Getting checked meant that I could end up the same way. Having my own pharmacy and being attached to machines the rest of my life.

 

I struggled with the thought. Getting checked meant facing the fact that I may have a disease. It would also put all the attempts at losing weight and being healthy to shame. How could I post all these healthy meals I made if I ended up with diabetes anyways? I realized later that the fear I had was facing the fact that I wasn’t consistent with my health or dedicated. It brought to life all the reality that when I was out I would eat whatever. I didn’t have the discipline to try and eat better. To get checked means facing my failures.

 

But no failure is worth my life.

 

My doctor was pretty confident about my diagnosis just from my urine test because there was so much sugar in it. Of course they still did the blood test but the sugary pee was the least of my problems. My numbers were really high, too high in fact. The “good news” is that it’s caught early enough for me to make a change. Now I didn’t have this huge coming to Jesus moment. I won’t lie and say I pulled a complete 180. Everything I eat is not organic and whole. I haven’t quit sugar quite yet.

 

I still struggled. When people brought junk to work potlucks or donuts just because I still ate them. I still eat fast food, candy, and drink beverages loaded with sugar. I took my meds religiously then kind of fell into the “if I remember” routine. I’m not perfect.

 

You are not alone

 

If there’s anyone out there with a similar situation I’m telling you, begging you even, to get checked. Diabetes is a silent killer for a reason. Some people don’t even have symptoms. Don’t worry if you’re not sure or if it’s something that runs in your family, it doesn’t hurt to add it as part of your check up routine. When it comes to your health knowledge is power. If going to the doctor makes you nervous, have a friend or family member go with you. Make it a part of your annual physical. At least if you know, it’s something you can get a jump on or stay in front of. Know that you’re not alone. Know that it’s not easy for me either but we can’t keep doing what we used to do. What we used to do is what got us here. It’s going to be hard. You’re going to have to really gain control of yourself, but we can do it! This disease is something we can take charge of and beat. Don’t be afraid to find out.

 

How did you find out about your diagnosis? Did you have symptoms? Feel free to share below I’d love to hear your stories!